July 28, I'm not on the Island
Were on our way home now. On a ship. It must be a dream i'm sure but it can't be because i've fallen asleep and woken up several times. You don't do that in a dream. We're going home. I'll write this more carefully so it makes sense
Day 16 or something on island
Jack stole Piggy's specs and the only way to build a fire we had. Piggy said we needed to go get em back cause i'm still chief. To bring the conch and remind em of the assembly. Samneric came with us. Besides a few little uns scattered around they're the only ones left. Everyone else is with Jack. We checked the beach where Simon was, was murdered. Killed like a pig, but they weren't there so they were at Castle Rock. It took a long time to get there on account of Piggy whining and sniveling bout his specs. He can't move nowhere without someone helping him so it takes forever. We got to Castle rock and Roger was keeping guard at the top. He asked me who goes there as if he didn't know. I tol em i was gunna call an assembly but they just laughed. Piggy started screeching bout being left alone and I told him to just shut up and sit still. They told me that Jack was gone hunting, which was a bit better because he had got a little scary. All the savages have their hair tied back and they are all covered in paint. Red paint that is probably pig blood too. Savages they were. Jack came up behind me all sneaky while I was talking. Could a killed me right there ifin he wanted to. He looked real chief like, all puffed out and important. Him and his hunters had a beheaded pig with em. Not sure why they cut off its head. Piggy started screaming like Jack was gonna come slit his throat or something. Jack told me to get back to my side of the island but I laid out real clear what we'd come for. He got mad but I would have given him fire had he the nerve to come in and ask for it nicely. He didn't have to come pinch Piggy's specs he did it cause he wanted to. He's just a no good thief and I told him so. He got mad and Piggy screamed like a girl. Jack charged at me with his stupid spear. Missed though and we had a good fight. Slammed my fingers the filthy theif! I tried reasoning with him again bout, the umm stuff we needed but he didn't get it. All painted up and pretending it was a game. Tis not a game, never was. I told him that we were gunna stay here for the rest of our lives if we don't have a fire. A puny cooking fire isn't gunna help nothing we need a signal fire. The dab didn't listen. Just got his men to grab Samneric and hold em. They couldn't fight him and I couldn't help them, it was awful. Those were my men they had felled and Jack was proud of hisself. I got mad though and called him a beast! A gluttonous pig! A bloody bloody awful theif like his is. He came at me but I went to and fought him. I hit him hard but then Piggy had sense and started yellin at us. Everybody booed him but he held up the conch. i guess it still had a little power left in it cause they all went quiet to hear what he had to say. He called em a pack of kids and said they were being foolish and they didn't like it. Roger was dropping stones down and the booing started again. He was right so I yelled too trying to make them understand how serious this was. Jack and his tribe all formed a big wal against us looking really fierce. And the worst thing ever happened. I looked up cause I heard something shifting and Roger rolled a giant rock odd the top. Piggy didn't hardly have time to scream. It hit him and knocked him over the edge of the cliff. He fell way down and smashed into the rocks. His head came open and blood splashed everywhere. Then the ocean swallowed him right up. I can't stop thinking about it. Everything turning red and his brains coming out and he laid there twitching. I keep having nightmares about it. jack started screaming happy cause the conch was smashed like Piggy's head and then he threw his spear at me and stabbed me in the ribs. It burned but I was so scared all I could do was run. They all hurled spears but they never caught me. I was so frightned. But I have to go eat now. They make us all eat at the same time at the same table.
I hate Jack and I hate the officers. Nobody understands that he is a murderer. SO my story, I layed in a covet for a long while. It hurt to move, and I was too scared to move much. They didn't chase me but I felt like they were. I waited til it was late and the sun was getting lower then i snuch back up to Castle rock, Robert was being guard and somebody was giving him food. I could smell the pig cooking and it made me delirious with hunger. I thougth maybe now that it was only me they wouldn't come after me they'd jus leave me be, that they weren't really so bad that killing was all an accident. But Jack hates me and he wanted me to die. The second night we were on the ship I woke up and he was standing above me witha knife from supper. I kicked him in the stomache and screamed. Both of us were a little cut up but the officers hauled him away. Now they watch us all the time. I know he wanted me right off the island and wouldn't stop til i was dead like Piggy and Simon. I ran away again to find some fruit, I was hungry I suppose. Some little 'uns saw me and screamed, must have been on Jacks side too. I went back to the beach where I belonged but all the empty shelters and lack of life were spooky and I hated being alone. So I slowly made my way to castle rocks again. On my way I sort of fell into a clearing. And there was this thing in there. It was like a Pigs head on a stick. But I could have sworn it was looking right at me, talking to me. It knew everything that was going on. I knocked it over and stole the stick. It was sharpened on both ends. I am more scared of that than even Jack. At castle rock I hid by a thicket and could see Samneric being part of the tribe. They weren't on my side anymore. I tried climbing up to talk to them but they wanted me to go away, cause it wasn't safe. Course they tol me that Jack had made them join or else he would a hurt them real bad. Samneric said that Jack and Roger hate me. That they were gunna come find me the next day. I told them that I would hide in the thicket right there and to stay way from it but they just tol me to shove off cause Roger was coming to check on them. Sam gave me a chunk of meat. I asked what they would do when they caught me and Sam just said that Roger sharpened a stick at both ends. I was so mad and tired and scared. What if Piggy had come out of the water to get me cause I didn't take care of him? And What did it mean that The stick was shrapened at both ends. Shouts came from up above and I knew that either Sam or eric was catching it for something, sounded like it hurt too. I fell asleep then.
Guess it would be day 17 on the island
I woke up cause I heard some kind a noise an then all the savages making their noise. I grabbed my stick and crawled into the thicket. Somebody was there by it though. I heard Jack talking and Roger saying something bout fooling them. Then a squeal like somebody got jabbed. They asked if he was sure it wa here. What twin it was yelped again and said it was. They beat the twins to make em tell. I didn't hear much for a few minutes but then I heard em yell "heave! heave!" and they rolled great big rocks off the cliff at me. It didn't hit me but it was close. Then there was a nother one cept way bigger and it shook the whole ground when it hit. Someone poked a spear in at me so I struck at it and think I hit it cause it moaned, they said i was to dangerous. I could hear them laughing beside bout something. Someone yelled smoke!They lit the thicket on fire. I ran fast and hit another savage hurting him. I ran and ran and ran til I fell down. I breathed hard and my ribs were huting awful bad. I didn't know what to do at all. No matter what they were gonna get me. i thought maybe I could burst through em like a boar. But then they would just turn around and chase me that way. And if I was up a tree and theu found me I'd be stuck there. If Piggy was here he could a told me. He was always sensible. I could hardly think straight anymore. I decided to hide. I found a thick bunch of trees to hide in. All bushes and vines and so thick you couldn't really see through it. You'd have to look under it close. I heard em yelling and shouting, the fire was getting the fruit trees. Tomorrow maybe I would be dead but then they would starve cause they ruined the trees. Fools! Good thing we were saved. I seen a savage close by. He started looking and I almost screamed. Pigs and mice and birds were screaming too cause the fire was everywhere. The savage looked underneath the safety net of leaves. I could see that he saw light on the other side but I was blocking light through in the middle. He was looking at me and I looked at him. I charged and one of us got bloody. The other savages came running and I was desperate. The pain in my side made it hard to breathe and the fore was right behind us. They savages were close and I was barely managing to stay away. I don't quite remember how it all played out after that, where i went or who I was running from. I don't really remember being tired or overyl concerned. The panic an survival instinct kinda was just present. Somehow I ended up on the beach, saw the shelters burst into flames and then felt it eating at my skin. I fell in the sand tyna roll it off. I looked up from there and saw a white hat, and an anchor, gold trim. A revolver and shiny buttons down the front like a uniform. It spoke to me and I almost couldn't hear it through the buzz in my head. It asked if there were any grown-ups with me. I just shook. The savages were standing behind me dumbfounded and scared. The officer muttered something under his breath. He said something about seeing my smoke and asked if we'd been havin a war. I nodded, the chap had no idea. He asked if anybody was killed. I tol him two cause they did. he didn't look like he believed it much for a while. Percival came up but couldn't even remember his name. The officer told us he'd take us all home. He asked who was boss. I said I was. He looked about and acted all disappointed in us. Said a bunch of british boys should have put out a better show than this. He just didn't understand. I thought back as far as I could to when we thought this was a good place, to when we had fun. But now everything there was dead. Dead like Simon and Piggy. We all started to cry, maybe just because we were embarrassed or cause we were scared of ourselves and happy to be found. Who knows. I cried cause I knew I could never look at any of these savages the same, causemy friends weren't coming home, and because we had all turned so evil. The officer turned away like he was ashamed or embarassed of a bunch of naked boys crying. The little uns scattered around and everyone stared in dumb silence after the tears stopped coming. He turned back around to us and pointed to his boat. Lets load up boys, we'll get you home. I stood frozen my mind replaying and replaying Simon's crazy words about me going home. He was right I was going home. But he wasn't. Poor quiet Simon. I ran as fast as I could to the platform where we had the fire. The officer yelled at me, so did Samneric, they must have thought i'd gone crackers. I dug and dug in the sand til I found it. This. I had barried it to keep it safe and now i'm glad. Its the one and only thing I will bring back with me from this island. With my head held high I walked with purpose back to the boat. Before climbing on I stripped every piece of clothing off my body. Nothing was coming back. I would leave everything behind. The other savages stared in awe then immediately followed suit, wiping away all that they'd become. Slowly boys rather than savage creatures of death and wildness imerged. Dirt and paint was washed off faces and names rather than spears climbed into the boat. Samneric each grabbed a hand and pulled me aboard. The officer and the other officers on the boat shifted uncomfortably and rowed us towards the ship. They had surredly not expected to be carrying a load of dirty, snivelling, naked cargo this day.
They did it again. Ringing some loud bell to make us come. I suppose its like the conch bringin us all in like to an assebly. Then they sit us all down in our too big uniforms that drown us an make us all eat at a long table with forks and spoons. They took all the knives away. When we first got on the ship all the other officers stared at us and didn't say a thing. None of them knew what to do. Finally officer Wendall took us into a room with beds and handed us big shirts to wear. None of us had worn a shirt in so long we could only stare at them. Finally Officer Wendall took a shirt and shoved over a little uns head. He started screaming and crying and even more officers came in. They looked a little frightened of us. Soon all the little uns and even some big uns were crying too. It took a long time but eventually we were all covered and ushered into a room with lots of food. Some of the officers were wrinkling their noses at us like we smelled bad. I wanted to punch them. Food was spread in front of us and we ate like wild animals. All of us threw up for hours after. Hardly anyone spoke to us for a long time. They just took us from place to place and then put us a room with beds to sleep. They tried to give Samneric their own beds but they screamed and fought til they gave in. I heard them wimpering in bed til late. Little uns cried out with nightmares and others yelled in fear even when they were awake. I couldn't even think clear bout anything. I was sure I was dreaming. I still think I'm dreaming. I must have ate some of the fruit Piggy told us not to and now I'm probably sick and gunna die from fever. But if this is all real, truly real when I get back I will tell them what things are really like on an island. Maybe or maybe I will just let them live life without the burden of knowing how people truly are.
