July now I think, Day 12 on island

They've done it, we're all going to die here. Not one of them even thinks about the smoke now that samneric say they saw the beast. Jack went off his rocker and stormed up over all the rocks through the jungle, leaving the little uns with Piggy cause he's too blind to see anything and he's scared of everything. I don't like the thought of us all being split apart. If we are going to survive this we need to stick together as a family, this is the only family that we've got. Simon says that i'm going home that for sure I will but without that smoke none of us will. He must be losing a few of his marbles though i don't mind his company as much as some of the others. I would rather that Jack had never been on the stupid plane or that he had died when it went down. Its his fault that everyone is fighting all the time. He's always pushin me testin, saying that I shouldn't be chief. Course I should we voted and its fair he's just playing poor about it. I think had he the chance he'd get rid of me he wants it bad he does. But he wont have it not as long as i'm here. Would be terribly nice though not to have to worry constantly bout everyone and if we are ever going to get home. If it was posible that the others could make  a fire and think about anything besides killing pigs or the beastie then I suppose I could let them be but even with me tellin em what to do they rarely pay any mind to the fire which will save us. They get so distracted so easy they are like babies running around. Even the biguns are doing it, all over that castle they ran making noise and fooling around. We went up there in the first place to kill the beast then fix the fire but no now they run around playing and making a game of everything. 'Tis not a game! If the beast is real then it could eat us, like it did the ugly 'un or maybe the fire got im but anyhow this is not a good island anymore. I want to go home like nuthin else in the world. If I could just get home I swear to God I'd mind my parents like an angel kid and do chores without even thinking about complaining. I'd bath twice a day and keep my room clean nough to eat off the floor. I'd give anything to be back home among sane people and grown-ups that could tell us what to do. I'm tired of this. Too tired and sick of fruit!